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Priorities

This past weekend was an eye opener and a catalyst to many discoveries that took place in my Cape Town visit.
I went to redeem myself and promised to repent from my ways which were none satisfactory and was the bane in my almost lost relationship.

After damage control and much convincing and ice melting we merged as better halves and more like husband and wife after therapy.
We reconciled our differences and went as far as talking and sorting out our finances.

What irritates my better half more than anything is how I go about using money; not to say that I spend on worthless things but he hates the debt trace I leave behind (I figure he knows in the end of the day he has to clean up behind me).

There is a difference in how we were brought up, his family is more privileged than mine and depend not on him. To me it’s amusing when I say I have problems, bills more than my salary to pay and you say “oh, I have to buy paint for my finished (newly built) home”. PAINT yes and NO not just any paint THEE best PAINT…

This shows that we can be willing to change and prove our readiness and enthusiasm for change in proving our loyalties but the “well privileged folk” only want the best. Never mind that you need a hand and paint can wait or the fact that you are a sole provider and there is no food on the table… no, paint is important.

Bite your tongue and curse you if you think that this is selfishness- it is simply living up to how you were brought up.

Though to me it is different… I would give a hand and a leg and all my pennies to help my mate for basic needs; but that does not mean another would do the same, hence the saying “Do with no expectations in return” but yet there is another saying from a great book called the bible “Do unto others as you would have them to do unto you”

No one likes being told that they are last priority and guess what: you don’t even have to spell it out or say it out loud – especially to a woman who claims to be independent (ironic huh).

I know I am his First Priority… NOT

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