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I am Love's enemy-- the pain that never goes away, the destroyer of all that is good in your heart

I take it you have now seen the monster that resides within, you have mingled and defined/ told apart the weak points from the good

Your views from mine make me believe you to be right and i oh i now look down on myself with shame of the monster that i have become

Allow me not to turn you into this beast i have become, run and run as far as you can. Hide and forget about my existence because this beast i so hate myself is still me

I can not run but to stand and fight, I am in despair and denial
I feel undeserving of anything great and pure
For i have seen pure turn to dust and great turn to evil

Why is the sun suddenly disappearing from my window- how is darkness falling upon me?
Have i lost my guard? Is this pain self inflicted? or is the truth hard to swallow?

Wake up rise and shine, the world awaits... no time for frowns and heartaches. why choose this soul out of so many?

My fault is not recognising love as pure and as great as it should and as it is

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Fumani said…
...it doesn't take a whole day to recognise sunshine...
30/11/09
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