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There are so many things that one tends to forget and take for granted. I witnessed a blessing today as I realised that for once in my life my eyes were not looking somewhere else and I did’t miss it.

Its odd how WE as humans pray so hard and so much for things that are given to us but yet can’t see them. Us people, we do not acknowledge or we are totally ignorant of so much that we receive. Today as I walked out my door, that little voice inside me said “take an umbrella” and I thought to myself nah, I’ll be fine.

After getting inside the taxi, it started pouring like crazy outside. That voice said “I told you so”, feeling a bit of defeat and resentment I watched the rain and said a silent prayer. I got to my first exit destination to find another taxi to work; I ran in the rain and made it with a few drops. Just after boarding to final destination, it started again and this time, it seemed like the Angels were doing a “spring-cleaning”. I found myself sad and helpless because of this tragedy- how was I going to get to work? I have to walk about 10 minutes in the rain from where I will get off!?! What am I going to do???…I looked at the book I ‘m almost finish reading that I carry with me and read in the taxi every morning and I thought, but why do I worry myself over something that I have no control over? Why spend precious time worried sick and in pain by what I could have done to prevent that? I did’t do it- I did’t take those measures; now why beat myself up about it? Then I remembered that I love rain, and I remembered that even though its raining so hard I can still pray for the rain to stop for a while when I get off the taxi until I get to work then continue. I prayed and I let go, I read my book and when the taxi stopped, the rain was gone. I saw a blessing, and I started to wonder…

How many of us are resentful of the mistakes and choices that left us in the rain? Have we all forgotten that we were happy when we walked into those things now we so hate? Just because the end result did not work out your way does not necessarily mean you have failed or could have done better. You can not change what happened, rather be happy and thank you that it did happen and leave everything else to the Creator.

Why slumber with regret and no hope for tomorrow? Hail to those who have come from the sunlight that surrounds you, pray for those who have gone from the sunlight that surrounds you, and pretend all the good things are for you

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Bella Songwiqi said…
Sometimes my own words bring me back to reality stronger and lighter! Wow

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