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I have a nerve to break free and voice the anger within me that burns so much of me. It destroys my dreams and my plans for my future
It leaves me empty with no words to whisper nor describe the gruesomeness and rage I hold within

How dare I allow myself to think there be wrong with me and that I am undeserving of happiness and glory

Wipe this tear that seem to run out of line with the other tear drops that fall straight from the eye down my chick to my hands
This one goes from the eye to my ear straight to my heart, what tear are you?
The salt burns the muscle within and as my heart rate increases, it slowly burns a whole

I seek no longer to mother whilst I’ve never bared a child in my belly to life
I seek no longer to argue because my debate days were much long enough and fun in high school mostly
I seek no longer to question because I somehow do not wish to know the answers or the reasons behind them

And so, I do away with that tear; stop the salt from tearing me apart…slowly but surely
I take away the salt in this tear, I choose to turn and may it fall to my chick and into my hand

Promise me no more… for I don’t care

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