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Him or the Crown

I had my castle built for him
I galvanised strength to love again
After a big wall of disappointment befell me

I moan not the loss
I moan the broken heart
The arrow that pierced the hearts together has melted
Melted under the power of childlike petty talks

I moan not the loss
I moan the broken heart
For I thought love was not selfish
I thought love is about the courage to carry each other

See, there are no tears in my eyes
My heart is used to this crap
They use the name but forget to live the name

Artificially building castle in the air
Housing themselves in a glass house

He left me, I saw it coming
A cobweb of comical excuses
And mats of dishonesty bargained as precious but lies

A stony talk and smile free chit chats
I hear his footsteps as he walks out of my heart
I feel no pain

He wanted me to worship at his feet
I will worship no other god than the Creator of heaven and earth

He wanted to be the alpha and omega
I could not stand a burning house
I can stand the heat in the kitchen

Floods choked me and I could not pretend
I have my feet on the ground
Aint no piece of me will cease to function

Just because some pretender has just cut the chase
I have no words to spare for an artificial Romeo
I mean the one with a shady broken soared
I am not thirsty for theatrics

I am not a junk for some school child like tantrums
I have a shade to go to
I want to forget the desert that is man made


I yearn for better
Beyond this chilly climate, behold I see the sun!
With the rays that build hope where none is

I sing because of the courage I get from the bird that sings
It tell me of the world of the courageous and the mighty

They fall but are not broken
They have the willpower of an eagle

Tell him I bear no grief
Big girls walk on when nerds fix their noses to disappointment

I am not building a monument for any nonsensical dubious history
Let him walk on
And let him way to some not distant world
The world more real than some sci-fi

Let him go!
I have a real world to go to.I have my eyes on the crown!
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