No backpacks... No Windhoek... No Patrick... No New Year... Its all gone

Today, you should know enough about the history of AIDS and since last year we did a bit of a background check- this year the focus is more on you Zuma, South African current President recognises the threat that this enemy is coming to be. The killer of all, young and old AIDS is no friend, wish it upon none and protect yourself to the fullest, take a stand world! Rise above and stand and fight this enemy… You, sitting there thinking that it is the end of the world for you You, who thinks they bewitched you because of jealousy, You, who thinks by raping a child you will ridden this virus You, who thinks suicide is an option All of you…DON’T BE COWARDS! STAND AND FIGHT This life is yours; let no one and NOTHING take it from you. Take responsibility for your actions, accept the consequences, and take precaution Learn as much as possible about HIV/AIDS and be aware If you don’t know your status- Get tested today!

I am Love's enemy-- the pain that never goes away, the destroyer of all that is good in your heart I take it you have now seen the monster that resides within, you have mingled and defined/ told apart the weak points from the good Your views from mine make me believe you to be right and i oh i now look down on myself with shame of the monster that i have become Allow me not to turn you into this beast i have become, run and run as far as you can. Hide and forget about my existence because this beast i so hate myself is still me I can not run but to stand and fight, I am in despair and denial I feel undeserving of anything great and pure For i have seen pure turn to dust and great turn to evil Why is the sun suddenly disappearing from my window- how is darkness falling upon me? Have i lost my guard? Is this pain self inflicted? or is the truth hard to swallow? Wake up rise and shine, the world awaits... no time for frowns and heartaches. why choose this soul out of so many? My ...

I know what am not to know, the aim and what transpired were never premeditated Surprise, surprise it hit you on the face “damn I think I can hang with this” I just want a kiss I just want a lay, the night is young and a new year is coming Where art dwells thee, oh no where but bouncing around my own head because of boredom I hear you hang and lay my friends’ friend, my my that’s news to me, my friend told me that your friend was no more My my, how fine you are- I hear and saw that you get rocked back and forth Oh so, now you want to join the crowd? I am different, like no other you have seen…true, you are Window snatches, scraping, watching stars…Onion peels Toilets, garages chairs You hear that, what? Listen… Calling, calling, the train is about to leave- wait, I wanted to tell you that I … Calling, calling, hello…hi, I am at the bus station…good to see you again Calling, calling, your flight is leaving in 45 minutes…who will be there? No, you will see them and they will take you the...

Lol, just random thoughts senseless to you but deeply rooted to me. Have you ever noticed how a room lights up when a genuine smile is introduced to it? Take note… you might learn a thing or two. My mother is my Pillar, she says to me the other day- uyabonake mntanam ndihlala ndithandazi ndicela ukuba uYehova akugcine andigcine ndizendikubone uphumelela usezindaweni apho kuphezulu khona, apho kukho uthando nolonwabo Noxolo for wena kwalapha emhlabeni. Being conniving as always and opportunist at nature when it comes to taking chances with my mother I dared to say to her, so ke mama that means if I don’t pass my degree in the 3 year term that I am suppose to and I don’t get that office desk that I’ve had my eye on for almost a year now and I don’t get another zero added on my salary slip sooner than later…you will have the WILL and promise to stick around as long as it take? Lol… what did I say to you (chance taker)!?! She fell for it…she with an undoubtedly profound YES confirmed (you ...

You & Me Looking up at the morning sky, I stand fixated in complete awe studying the artistry of shapes and patterns that blanket our usually clear blue sky and I ask myself, What would it take to get the sun to shine a little? What would it take to get these moist pompous white and grey clouds to part in stubborn obedience to its piercing darts of white light unveiling its magnificence? But yet the rain poured, pampering this hardened crust of black exterior forged over time. This unexplainable thing we call life. Its blood thirst never quenching or relenting, sipping off any liquid substance left in me, crafting ever so finely this rigid frame. What it leaves behind is but a mold of what it would lay claim to as being its creator. You see, life is but a consequence of time on a journey with its loyal companion You & Me. It is master of all for even with you or me it as existed before either of us and continues to stray onward undeterred into the lives of those that will subse...

You're a dirty, dirty man And you gotta dirty mind You're a dirty, dirty man You and that other woman, you're 2 of a kind But you forgot 1 thing baby when you were doing me wrong That Im a good house keeper Im gonna take my broom and sweep All of the dirt out on the street You're a dirty, dirty man Oh in so many, so many dirty ways You're a dirty, dirty man And you've been hidding your little dirt all over this here place I know you have Oh here's my chance baby to throw some mud in your face Coz Im a good house keeper Im gonna take my broom and sweep All of the dirt, yes I am, out on the street Oh, Im cleaning outl my whole house Fast as I canIts time to make everything spick and span You're a dirty, ooh you're a dirty man You do me dirty for so many years, yes u did You're a dirty, dirty man, yes u are And Im tired of you and your woman and your dog too You're a dirty man You're a dirty man Now get outta my houseDont u never, never, nev...

As I laid listening to the rain and hearing the soft warming melody of a heartbeat which was not mine. My mind dwelled in the room and my soul spoke to my still body. Speak now, say it - it is time…the moment slipped. How do you break a balloon careful inflated with one prick of a small sharp pin? The sound of the explosion of that balloon will deafen you and leave you with nothing but an echo of disbelief and your eardrums senseless to sound and uncomfortably painful to the core. Since when has another taken the shine of importance and the confidence of being able to speak proper and write proper? Same as asking Marlboro lights or filters and constraints rather than restraints and that is not even close to the more unexplainable disabilities that come when overwhelmed with the presents of such mighty beautiful mind. Defeating doubt is a grate release from a huge burden. It is no longer an iceberg … it has now been broken. Hope not , that I somehow have become aloof. If one can point a...

The world looks different from the eyes of a child and eyes of a middle aged man. A newborn child has no fears because it is unaware and has no knowledge of fear. A grown man well that’s a different story… After chatting with some of my friends, I came to confirm the fact that all grown ups have fears. From normal phobias such as being scared of heights to fear of dying Death scares me not; I believe we all are scared of any physical pain (you don’t have a choice really as much as your mind is trained or can withstand the intake but according to the human anatomy and biology- you are bound to say ouch when you burn). I do have some small things (creatures, creepy crollys) that make my body squirm on sight. Growing up, Failure use to be my biggest fear, until after 18 (well, that’s where the brain is fully capable to be cognitively 100%), I realised, there’s no better way of learning and appreciating what you achieve if you do not fail or fall. I swallowed that hard pill and past that ...

Things happen and so many come as shocking surprises and others as forgotten truths that we all wish not to witness the coming or final discovery of it. Its hard to face head on your worst fears and realising that what you always perceived and predicted as true is in fact the truth. Its all about having a back bone to be able to stand and face this world. When you are in pain and in bed on your own and no one hears and sees your thoughts, those are the deciding moments of your life. That is the time when one makes a choice to be or not to be. Only the strong prevail, only the might walk on. As we face the tides in out lives, we forget not that we once walked to the parks of the union buildings and shared our future plans and dreams under the beautiful clear blue summer skies. Now drifted and miles and oceans apart, we still hang on and look forward to a better tomorrow. Hold my hand and never let go, I will be an idea and you will be the wisdom behind it. There is so much that is still...

This beautiful prayer was shared by Max Lucado eight years ago after 9-11. It is just as pertinent today as it was eight years ago. I share it with you once again on this special day. "DO IT AGAIN, LORD" America Prays September, 2001 Dear Lord, We're still hoping we'll wake up. We're still hoping we'll open a sleepy eye and think, "What a horrible dream." But we won't, will we, Father? What we saw was not a dream. Planes did gouge towers. Flames did consume our fortress. People did perish. It was no dream and, dear Father, we are sad. There is a ballet dancer who will no longer dance and a doctor who will no longer heal A church has lost her priest, a classroom is minus a teacher.Cora ran a food pantry. Paige was a counselor and Dana, dearest Father, Dana was only three years old. (Who held her in those final moments?) We are sad, Father.For as the innocent are buried, our innocence is buried as well.We thought we were safe. Perhaps we should hav...

No wonder why so much haste and so much commotion on the lose - Recession - Xenophobia - H1N1 - Strikes - Brutal Murders - Breakups Stay strong people… be careful and Pray…. Tomorrow is 09/09/09 This coming September 9, 2009, is the 252nd day of the year, 252 adds to 9, and 09-09-09 = 27. 09-09-09 is also the last of the single-digits dates for quite a while - 1,001 years to be precise. It is also the upside-down number of "the beast" - satan = 666, of course. The day itself falls on a Wednesday and both Wednesday & September have 9 letters.

On this day a baby was born 53 years ago; at the age of 28 that child gave birth to a daughter and named her Thuthukani the dad gave her a name too known as Isabella (Bella) Yes, it is my mother’s birthday today, a woman I am proud to call MY MOTHER. She had it tough and bad but she also experienced the Lord’s grace and mercy. My Mother made me who I am, she is the one that gave me confidence and 100% self-esteem to face the world that we live in. she taught me how to make an honest living without hurting and abusing others, she taught me how to forgive and to trust. She made her life an open book for me to learn from as much as there is bad in those pages but they stand as warnings and examples preparing for my future just as the bible does. Through out your life your ancestors have guided you and helped you to find your way home. Awulibalanga imvelaphi yakho nalapho wakhuliswa khona yintombi yaseMahlotshaneni (umhakhulu wam), Mamthembu; Jali ; Maqatha Alikhulu. Wakhuliswa wena nga...

This past weekend was an eye opener and a catalyst to many discoveries that took place in my Cape Town visit. I went to redeem myself and promised to repent from my ways which were none satisfactory and was the bane in my almost lost relationship. After damage control and much convincing and ice melting we merged as better halves and more like husband and wife after therapy. We reconciled our differences and went as far as talking and sorting out our finances. What irritates my better half more than anything is how I go about using money; not to say that I spend on worthless things but he hates the debt trace I leave behind (I figure he knows in the end of the day he has to clean up behind me). There is a difference in how we were brought up, his family is more privileged than mine and depend not on him. To me it’s amusing when I say I have problems, bills more than my salary to pay and you say “oh, I have to buy paint for my finished (newly built) home”. PAINT yes and NO not just any ...

Last Friday I decided to take a breather and free myself from my usual tight schedule of studying and been broke. I went to visit a friend which introduces me to more friends. We had a blast, it was wonderful… I got a bit irritated an uncomfortable when one of my friends’ friend’s girlfriend started taking pictures of us. And my reason is- she did not ask and some how you feel violated when someone just surprises you by snap shooting at you holding a glass and not posed. I am one of those people who are picky when it comes to taking pictures (you them people who believe a person has a good side of their face or body for a snap shot). I’m not really photogenic but I surely love the camera when used by me or agreed to be taken a picture. Some people see no harm in just randomly taking pictures forgetting that we come from different worlds and what you find “cool” might be the opposite to me….lol. Anyway… here’s a killer – still same place, we were having Pizza and one of the guys says he...

All i know and believe is : Anyone who is to be president should be free of any hint of scandal! Should we vote? The 22nd April 2009 is arround the corner... What to do??? Who to choose?

We, the people of South Africa, Recognise the injustices of our past; Honour those who suffered for justice and freedom in our land; Respect those who have worked to build and develop our country; and Believe that South Africa belongs to all who live in it, united in our diversity. We therefore, through our freely elected representatives, adopt this Constitution as the supreme law of the Republic so as to- Heal the divisions of the past and establish a society based on democratic values, social justice and fundamental human rights; Lay the foundations for a democratic and open society in which government is based on the will of the people and every citizen is equally protected by law; Improve the quality of life of all citizens and free the potential of each person; and Build a united and democratic South Africa able to take its rightful place as a sovereign state in the family of nations. Last time i checked the introdution of SA's act remains. Unless the current ruling party has ...

I humble myself to you all in request for your help in anyway possible but mostly and for most you can help by prayer. On my visit to a public hospital yesterday I stumbled across The Lords’s grace and mercy through people that work for a company known as HospiVision: OASIS. These people are Canadian missionaries that are trying to install faith and hope to Patients whom are most infected by HIV/AIDS. They provide them with meals and clothes but what got my attention and humbled me was the way they treat the patients that go there for mostly the food. But there is actually more- they do not only feed these people but also feed their souls. It is amazing when The Lord touches you for a second and third time. My dear friends I have faith in the Lord and as each and every email with a prayer request comes in I pray to Jesus that he gives the power to be helpful to you all and I pray everyday for things to be of Jesus choosing and ways. The Lord Jesus, in one of his journeys he came across...

Loyal and Steedfast - Lovers Rings What do you say when your dearest and precious better half opens his hands and says “I have a surprise for you!” Of course you jump with joy and excitement, curiosity gets the best of you and you cant wait to see what it is. The same has happened to me, he came back from Australia on the 15th December 2008 (a day earlier than expected). These rings are the most gorgeous things ever created; I have followed their trade for a while now. When he opened his hands to reveal the exact rings that I was admiring just few days before coming to Cape Town. Amazingly; unbelievably true. I read them and they were exactly the same as the ones I saw on the net, except mine is the exact size as his. I knew he was not going to believe me if I dared to tell him this. It killed me pretending that I know nothing about these rings and how important and treasured it will be in my heart. I love the stars and I believe in God, this time all combine gave me a gift that no oth...